The Big Bad World!!

I'm LOST.
Even before I start with this post let me honestly tell you that right now where I stand, at the crossroads of life, I'm lost.

I always thought I had it all figured in life, always thought I had a game plan but apparently I was a fool and maybe too naive to understand the worldly ways...

The year 2012 is already turning out to be shit. 

I've never been this troubled, having the worst time ever. The very fact that i came back to writing my blogs is the testament that i need help.

Now i knew things were going to get tough but never considered the impact they'll have on me...I always joked that the day my luck runs out on me, I'm going to fall flat on my face and I fear the time has come.

Been going through a lot lately both at the work front and on the personal, I thought I'll never be effected by all this but alas I am.

I am somebody for whom friends are very important and lately this part of me is really giving me sleepless nights.

Till date I've been called by a lot of names, abused but never did it hurt the way it hurts right now. Now i'm not what a mother would describe as a textbook definition of a suitable or a good boy, but i'm not and i repeat not a BAD person, I've done my fair share of bad things but i'm sure i don't deserve what i'm facing now...

Or maybe life isn't always a party, everyone has to face its ups n downs..(no wonder i never liked the roller coaster ride)

For those who have seen my transition from the rebel in school to somebody who's opinion mattered, will surely agree I TIRED, and i think i gave and continue to give my best shot.

I'm at an-all-time low in my life and a few people are making it a whole lot difficult for me. I just hope even this phase of my life changes, I desperately need my mojo back...Lady Luck don't ditch me now.

I just hope people see the real me, I feel i'm constantly being judged maybe I'm thinking too much into it but i can't help it.

And when somebody for whom you care so much calls you a "bad person", it hurts it really really hurts.. 

This post is more of my frustration coming out and a desperate attempt to avoid going into a depression.

God help me. I need you more than ever. I need somebody to have the faith in me, to trust me.

finishing off by just wishing that things improve!